Hello Bloggers!
It has been 2 whole weeks since I last ran. I think I am going to attempt a short run tomorrow. The last asthma attack I had left me really sick for over a week, and now I am just scared to run. Unfortunately, I think I am going to have to withdraw from the marathon this October. BUT! I am not giving up. It's just not enough time for me to train and do well. I have an asthma condition. I didn't develop it until I was 18. It hasn't even been 2 years since my first attack! I am still trying to get used to it and get it under control. See how bad it actually is. I am going back to the specialist to get help and figure out what I can do.
I find myself missing running, but my fear is winning today. It is scary not being able to breathe, and it is scary when it takes days for my lungs to feel better. This week, I am just trying to figure out if it is worth making me sick. So tomorrow I am going to go for a short run and see what happens. Right now, my goal is a half marathon. I think that's more realistic for now. And come on bloggers, I have plenty of time in my life to train for a marathon. The point of this challenge was to give me something to do, a goal to work towards. And it has accomplished that. Now I need to be realistic.
Last week, I had the opportunity to spend a lot of one on one time with my grandmother. She is one tough lady, and one of my most favorite people in my life. She has such a kind and gentle soul. With her in the house, everything was alright. She told me many stories of my grandfather. She misses him, as do I. I sometimes wonder what he would tell me to do about this marathon. I think he would tell me to try. To not give up, but to be smart. This is similar advice that my daddy gave me. The problem is my pride. I have lots of it. But my dad is right. I can't push myself to do something if I am not ready. If I am not healthy enough. So my pride has to be pushed aside, and my dad gets a point. I figured he could use a shout out on my blog, since all he has been is a support during this whole adventure. And I know he will continue to be, as long as I do it in a smart and healthy way.
Bloggers, don't ever give up on what you want to do. Trust me, I know life can be hard. This summer has been really hard for me. There have been trials, tears, injuries, and disappointment. But I have to keep moving on. Go for a run, take a yoga class, go for a walk. Find something that makes you happy and gives you inner peace. Hang in there bloggers!
Happy running!
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